It's crazy the things that can trigger a meltdown. Today Mom emailed me a sound clip from a new Ad at the Salon, promoting deals for Wedding Season. At the very end of the Ad is a cut of Ryan's voice from when he used to make his own ads. I knew that Ad was new so when I heard him, I guess I just wasn't expecting it -- to hear his voice so loud and clear; it hit me like a ton of bricks.
I sit here tonight, smiling and laughing and crying at some of the memories family have posted the past few days, now that 6 months have passed. It's still so hard for me when my mind gets to that place where I remember everything. How many times can you say you miss someone until it sinks in that you just won't ever see them again?
The other day we were watching TV and an Ad came on for "An American Tale" and I almost lost it. Ryan and I used to LOVE that movie, and at that point, many years later, one of the songs really fit us. Ryan was away and we were writing back and forth evrey few days and I remember it like yesterday... I mentioned that movie to him to see if he remembered watching it as kids and he certainly did. I even remember printing out the lyrics for him and sending them to him. The lyrics were from the song where the brother and sister got split up and they were singing to each from miles away...
Bro: Somewhere out there,
beneath the pale moonlight,
someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight.
Sis: Somewhere out there,
someone's saying a prayer,
that we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there.
Bro: And even though I know how very far apart we are,
it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star.
Sis: And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.
Together: Somewhere out there,
if love can see us through,
then we'll be together, somewhere out there,
out where dreams come true.
I really loved this song and the lyrics, even though it was from a cartoon, because at that particular time in our lives, Ryan was away from me but we were still sleeping under the same moon and looking up at the same stars.
Now it's him that I see when I look up at that same moon and those same stars...
Miss you Ry-Pie
<3 Lil Sis
Here is the Piano version of the song without words...
Somewhere Out There...: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyVSvDPv4RM
